Kyrie for worship during Coronavirus quarantine

Kyrie for worship during Coronavirus quarantine

The Kyrie functions to say to God "we are so broken without you! We need you, please have mercy on us!" We confess our brokenness and our need for God. And then we follow it with the hymn of praise- celebrating that even in our brokenness, we can joyfully proclaim God's praise, because God is with us always!

Kyrie

Seeking peace in a broken world- but also knowing God’s peace through God’s presence, we pray to the Lord.

Lord, have mercy.

Seeking peace in suffering, illness, and pain, but also feeling God’s peace through healing, prayer, and those who help, we pray to the Lord.

Lord, have mercy.

Seeking peace through our distress, depression, isolation, and fear, but also feeling God’s peace through the words of loved ones and the hope we see in the world, we pray to the Lord.

Lord, have mercy.

Seeking peace through the pain of worshipping separately, longing for our holy community to be gathering, but also feeling peace through God’s presence with each of us as we worship together distantly, we pray to the Lord.

Lord have mercy.

Help, save, comfort, and defend us, loving Lord. We need you now, as we have needed you every day. We cannot live without you.

Amen.

A Christmas/New Years/Wedding Sermon

One year ago today my sister Ally gave me a brother-in-law when she married Bob. I was lucky to be able to participate in their wedding as bridesmaid/officiant. Today I'm excited to share the sermon with you from that blessed occasion.
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I was driving home from a Christmas celebration around midnight on December 25th listening to one of those "Christmas music all the time" stations.   At 11:58pm they played a Christmas song.  At 12:01 am, they played an oldies song.  They immediately moved past Christmas at the stroke of midnight.  For most of the world, Christmas ends at midnight on December 25th.

                But this is not true for the church!  The church season of Christmas lasts for 12 whole days.  Today is the 8th day of Christmas, which is 8 maids a milking for anybody who needs to run out an exchange a gift quick.  So while today marks the beginning of a new year, we are still in the season of Christmas.  In keeping with the Christmas season, the gospel reading today comes from the second chapter of Luke: A reading from the book of Luke.

⁸ There were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. ⁹ An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. 

¹⁰ But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid. I bring you good news that will cause great joy for all the people. ¹¹ Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is the Messiah, the Lord. ¹² This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger.”

¹³ Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying,

¹⁴ “Glory to God in the highest heaven,

    and on earth peace to those on whom his favor rests.”

¹⁵ When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, “Let’s go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about.”

¹⁶ So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger.  ²⁰ The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things they had heard and seen, which were just as they had been told.

                The gospel of the Lord.

               

Christmas is a wonderful time to have a wedding.  The Christmas season is a time of a long wait fulfilled, a time of seeing God's presence, and a time of being surrounded by family and friends. 

                The Christmas season and a wedding are both preceded by a time of preparation.  The entire 4 week long season of Advent is dedicated to preparing for Christmas.  It's a time of preparations like putting up decorations, digging out candles for an Advent wreath, and making plans to see family.  But more important are the internal preparations we do.  We prepare our hearts to make room for the Christ child.  We practice forgiveness and radical hospitality for a baby who is not welcomed elsewhere in society.  We find quiet time to listen and see God's presence around us.

                Bob & Ally have spent much more than 4 weeks in preparations for this wedding.  Their preparation included things like finding this venue, making lists, tasting cakes, making lists, assigning tasks, making new lists, and preparing for family and friends.  Oh, also making lists.  (Did I mention that Ally likes to make lists?) 

But in addition to all of this visible preparation, Bob & Ally have done the important internal work of preparing their hearts and their relationship for the start of marriage.  They have spent intentional time building their relationship and strengthening the foundation upon which this party rests.  They are making space in their lives for a new marriage, just as Christmas preparations help us make space for the baby Jesus in our busy lives.  Bob & Ally have been doing this inner work knowing that a wedding is just the start of something that lasts forever- just as we begin Christmas knowing that welcoming Jesus into the world lasts for more than just a day- or even 12 days.

                Christmas is a good time for a wedding because the story of a young couple journeying towards marriage is the story of the season.  And much like Ally & Bob, Mary & Joseph are not alone through their journey.  An angel goes out to the shepherds saying "Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy for all the people.”  The angel invites the shepherds to come and see the beginning of a new life.  The angels' message brought the shepherds to the manger, to meet the baby and accompany the family in their new life as a family.  Sort of like how you might receive a wedding invitation: "Do not be afraid!  I bring you good news of great joy for all people!  Bob and Ally are getting married!"  The wedding invitation brought all of you here to witness the birth of a new life together as husband and wife.  Although I'll leave it up to Bob and Ally to decide which of you are stinky shepherds and which are heavenly angels...

                Either way, Christmas reminds us that we are not alone in our journeys.  God was present with Mary and Joseph at what was surely a confusing and complicated stage of life.  God's presence was seen through the angels, the shepherds, through the promised messiah born as the new baby.

 And God is present with us, today, too.  Present through the faces of loved ones gathered here to celebrate with you, present through the promises you make to one another. 

The biggest reason I think Christmas is a good time for a wedding is also the biggest difference between Christmas and a wedding.  When Jesus was born, the world received the long awaited Messiah- the savior of the world, whom God had been promising to Israel for hundreds of years.  God became human and walked on earth with us, experiencing our suffering and joy, and offering us forgiveness of sins and eternal salvation.

The arrival of a messiah is quite different than the new beginning of a marriage.  Jesus is God incarnate- Jesus is perfect.  But anyone who has been married for more than an hour can tell you that no spouse is perfect.  Ally, Bob, neither of you receives a perfect companion today.  But fortunately you don't need each other to be perfect.  Jesus came as a human to offer perfection,  so you don't need to look for it in each other. 

While you don't get perfection in your spouse today, you do receive a companion to be with you through life's ups and downs.  Someone to marvel with you at life's mysteries, to mourn life's unexpected tragedies, and to rejoice with you at life's celebrations.  And the angels would tell you that this, indeed, is good news of great joy.

So, Christmas is like a wedding- a time of preparation, a time surrounded by family and friends, and a time to remember that salvation comes through the Christ child, not each other.   Christmas, like a wedding, is a time of celebration, of moving through life together- marking the big steps and making space for the little details.

Next we will sing together a song Bob & Ally have chosen, called Borning Cry.  It is a beautiful reminder that we go through life's transitions together- with friends and family beside us and God within us at every moment.  Our song together as a community marks the next steps of a journey that began with a borning cry and continues today with your marriage vows.

Amen.

A 4am Saga of drama, heartbreak, and adventure

This is a true story from the early days of living in our new house. It seems comical now, but nothing is funny at 4am.

Scene I- 4am
Baby awakes. Mama feeds baby. Dad sleeps. Baby returns to sleep uneventfully.

Scene II- 4:01am
Smoke alarm beeps. Waking up mama, while everyone else is blissfully asleep.

Scene III- 4:15am
Dad's alarm goes off for work. Smoke alarm continues to beep. Mom goes downstairs, miraculously finds the exact box containing exactly one 9 volt battery for a smoke alarm. Returns upstairs with battery and step stool.

Scene IV- 4:21am
Dad pulls down the offending smoke alarm. Opens battery compartment only to discover that this smoke alarm takes 2 AA batteries.

Scene V- 4:25am
Mom returns to the box, only to discover that there are zero AA batteries in the whole house. Returns dejectedly upstairs to report this to Dad.

Scene VI-4:30am
Dad reports that the smoke alarm he pulled down is not in fact the smoke alarm that is beeping.

Scene VII-4:31am
In which everyone wanders around looking for what the #&$^@*@&$ is making all that noise.

Scene VIII-4:40am
Mom and Dad discover that a carbon monoxide detector, in a different box, has a low battery and is making the infernal beeping. It takes one 9 volt battery.

Scene IX-4:41am
Mom returns to the battery box and pulls out the 9 volt battery. It is a brand A battery in a brand B box- it is a dead 9 volt battery. There are no working 9 volt batteries in the house to replace the beeping carbon monoxide detector.

Scene X-4:45am
Batteries removed from beeping device. Dad heads off to work. Mama heads back to bed. Baby has mercifully slept through the whole darn thing.

We bought batteries that day. All fire safety devices are fully functioning and awaiting another inconvenient time to wake us up again.

Product Quality Review: Baby

I spent five years working as a technical writer, during which time I wrote many reports summarizing the quality of manufactured goods. Here is the Product Quality Review for a recent product I've reviewed in depth: BABY.

Product Quality Review
Product: Baby

Issue 1: Leaky Milk Intake Valve
This one-way valve frequently malfunctions, causing milk to eject from the unit unpredictably and with messy results for the user.

Issue 2: Confusing User Interface
The user interface on this unit is quite visually appealing, but is complicated to use. The unit makes limited sounds, so the same sound can mean the unit is happy, wet, upset, or tired. Work on programming system to identify and communicate needs clearly. Until then, include an instruction manual!

Issue 3: Waste Output System is Uncontrollable
The user cannot control the timing of system waste output. Waste is ejected unpredictably in any amount at any time. Terribly inconvenient, especially paired with the leaky milk valve in #1.

Issue 4: Sleep Mode is Unreliable
The unit's sleep mode is quite challenging to enable, as the process for enabling it changes randomly. Once the unit is in sleep mode, the length of sleep is quite variably- sometimes 20 minutes, sometimes 3 hours. A reliable, simple process for enabling sleep mode is highly desired.

Issue 5: High Energy Input Required
This unit requires quite high energy levels from the user. Fixing sleep mode in #4 will significantly improve this issue. Develop more energy-efficient modes for this unit.

Issue 6: Alarm Mode is Touchy
Product will sound alarm mode randomly, loudly, and without warning. Volume control, snooze function, and off-switch would be significant improvements.

Overall Assessment: QUALITY PRODUCT- HIGHLY RECOMMEND!
Product comes highly recommended! An extremely attractive interface with innovative design features like smile and laugh modes (see image 1, below). The cuddle function is great, too. The engineers in the toddler division suggest that many of the issues with BABY product will be resolved with time.

The best laid plans of mice and new parents

Recently Tim and I planned to trade night feedings for the 8 week old who is still up 2-3 times a night. Here was our genius, fairly simple plan:

1. Baby goes to sleep.
2. After 4 or so hours, baby wakes up hungry
3. Nissa gets up to feed and change baby and put him back to sleep. Tim sleeps
4. Baby sleeps for 2-3 hours
5. Tim gets up to bottle feed baby, change baby, and put him to sleep. Nissa sleeps
6. Hopefully baby sleeps more. Everyone gets up in the morning happy and refreshed

Great plan, right? Some really great intended outcomes:
A. Baby's needs are met
B. mom and dad each get a much  extended stretch of sleep
C.-Z. Did I mention the extra parental sleep?

Alas, as Jack Reacher says, " no plan ever survives first contact with the enemy." Here's how things actually went down those two nights:

Night 1
9:30pm baby goes to sleep. So far so good.
First feeding:  Nissa wakes up to find Tim gone. Keys and shoes are gone, and a text confirms a fire call (the good news being that both mama and baby slept through the fire pager going off!). So much for dad taking first feeding. Mama and baby do the feeding, changing, swaddling, back to sleep routine.
Second feeding: Nissa wakes up to find a man in the bed, and screams bloody murder before realizing it's just Tim and she didn't hear him come home. Good thing the baby was already awake or he'd have had quite a rude awakening. Since Tim had been been awake for about 4 hours at this call, he needed to sleep and thus couldn't take the second feeding, either.

Result: Tim loses sleep from a fire call. Nissa still gets up for every feeding. Everyone is scared silly by Nissa screaming. The extra sleep plan was 0% successful.

Night 2
First feeding: Nissa wakes up and feeds baby. Tim sleeps. All is well.
Second feeding: Tim wakes up and prepares a bottle of pumped breastmilk for baby. Feeds 3/4 of bottle to baby. Fire pager goes off. Tim wakes up Nissa to finish feeding baby and leaves for the fire station.

Result: Tim loses sleep from hours at a fire. Nissa still had to get up for every feeding. 2% successful.

Babies and on call jobs: preventing sleep since always. Fortunately, the baby's sleep length is trending upward. This is just a phase. Now the fire pager, not a phase, but unlike babies, it has an off switch.

No more plans for now. We've learned our lesson.

Thoughts I have while swimming in a hotel pool

Thoughts I have while swimming in a hotel pool:

1. This pool is huge for a hotel!
2. And I have it all to myself!! Yes!!
3. Man, is it shallow!!
4. Man, is it cold!
5. I think I'll swim some laps.
6. I can't do flip turns in water this shallow or I'll knock myself out on the floor.
7. Maybe I'll do a lap of each IM stroke!
8. I forgot how hard butterfly is.
9. Seriously, how can  like 10 yards of butterfly make me this exhausted?
10. I forgot how terrible I am at breast stroke. My knees don't bend right for this!
11. Why do I do IM sets when I'm terrible at half the strokes?
12. Maybe I'll do a hot tub set!
13. Man, is this hot tub shallow!
14. I can sit on the floor in here and still breathe it's so shallow.
15. Man, they really could turn the heat up in this hot tub.
16. Too bad I don't have ten other people with me to run in circles in the pool and try to make a whirlpool.
17. Too bad I don't have ten other people here to play foot tag with me.
18. I'm turning blue from cold, time to get out.
19. Where do they get such tiny towels?
20. Where do they get such scratchy towels?
21. Why do the pool towels always have a blue stripe? Why not green or orange or polka dots?
22. Let's do this again tomorrow before check out!

How to Make Small Talk with a Pregnant Woman

So I'm pregnant. (Surprise!) In the last few months I've noticed something odd: people don't seem to know how to talk with a pregnant woman. At church, in the office, in line at the grocery store. What do you say to her?

Many people seem to be completely stumped as to how to converse with a woman who is with child. This is evidenced by A) inappropriate comments or questions or B) the same comments and questions every time. So to ease your discomfort (and hers!), I've prepared this handy guide on How to Make Small Talk with a Pregnant Woman*.  Enjoy!

*This guide assumes that you already know she is pregnant. If you are unsure, please reference my prior post on when it is appropriate to ask a woman if she's pregnant.  (Spoiler alert, the answer is never.)

1. Boring is better than offensive. The same 3 questions do get old. Very old. "How are you feeling? When are you due? Do you know if it's a boy or a girl?" But, I'd prefer to answer the same question the 50th time than to try to navigate a response to something that is inappropriate or offensive. When you tell me that I'm "as big as a house", do I answer with the snarky, sarcastic comments that probably aren't quite right for Sunday morning coffee hour, or do I laugh and pretend you aren't a jerk? Stick with asking when I'm due. You don't remember the answer from the last 6 times you asked, anyway.

2. Put your comments through the "Would my wife smack me if I said this to her" test. This handy test can help you avoid making the offensive comments from number 1. Before you let words out of your mouth, ask yourself if your wife (or mother, sister, friend, etc) would get upset hearing them. How would it go telling your wife that she's "getting HUGE" or is "as big as a house!" Where would you sleep that night? If a comment would make your wife upset, please don't say it to a hormonal, emotional woman. She might very well smack you, too.

3. Make sure your question doesn't make you look like an idiot. My 3 year old niece commonly asks me "do you still have that baby in your tummy?" It's adorable- because she's 3 and clearly doesn't have a firm grasp on the concept of pregnancy. When adults ask "you still haven't had that baby yet?" it just makes them seem... unintelligent. Do they think I already had the baby, but just left it in the car?
The same is true of the question "do you know what you're having?" Yes, I know what I'm having- it's a baby. Not a kitten or a koala or a basketball. Seriously- I know you mean to ask if I know the sex of the baby, but you literally just asked me WHAT might emerge from my nether regions. Even the 3 year-old knows it will be a baby.

4. Leave the horror stories for Halloween. Please. We don't want to hear about your 90 hour labor, or the cousin's friend who gave birth to a 15 pound baby and hasn't walked normally since then. Carrying and birthing a baby is scary enough without your story waking me up sobbing in the middle of the night. Just don't.

5. Don't ask a  question you don't want an honest answer to. There are parts of my pregnancy that you, kind almost-stranger, don't really want to know about. And I can't guarantee what sort of mood I'll be in when you ask. I could give you the polite answer, or you could get an entire list of every discomfort I've experienced AND every fear I have for the birthing room. There are some questions you'd best avoid if you're not prepared for a conversation about bodily fluids, functions, and parts.

6. Let the future miseries stay in the future. I am fully aware that when the baby comes I will not get very much sleep. I realize that my body will still have quirks and discomforts after the baby is born. I know parenting will be hard. You don't need to point it out to me. Especially not after I've made a comment about the current things I'm experiencing. My comment that I'm tired is really just an answer to how I'm feeling, not an invitation for you to tell me how much MORE tired I'll be at 2am a month from now when I haven't slept for more than 45 minutes at a time in weeks. The fact that I will be miserable in the future doesn't actually change the fact that I am somewhat miserable now. I AM tired now, even if I will be more tired tomorrow.

7. Don't fixate on our bodies. We are well aware of our bodies. Please let part of our conversation be about something OTHER than our growing bellies, swollen limbs, and tired feet. We are WELL aware of them. Our spirits, intellect, and emotions are also part of this whole baby growing thing we've got going on: feel free to ask us how we're coping, what we're excited about, or what we've found unexpected in this process.

8. Regular stuff is not off limits! Believe it or not, pregnant women are actually aware of the world beyond themselves. It is 100% acceptable to have a 'regular' conversation about weather, office shenanigans, or funny stories with a pregnant woman. If you're feeling stuck still, here are some great conversation starters that anyone would appreciate:

• Have you seen [the newest movie]? I've heard it's great!
• If you had unlimited money to take one vacation this year, where would you go and what would you do?
• What are you looking forward to about the next year?
• What's your favorite smell?
• I'm not sure what to make for dinner tonight. What is your family having?

I hope this helpful guide has prepared you for wonderful conversations with the mothers-to-be in your life! I'd love to hear stories of your successes (or failures) in this area.
Happy conversing!
Nissa